The day started out really well. I woke up feeling good and I spent the day with my family and friends. As the night went on I was becoming more and more anxious and it really hit its stride when I was out and my friend texted me about stuff. It made me so anxious and angry and there were so many emotions going through me. It ended up making me have a horrible time and I hate that. I hate that I let little things ruin my night. I was having a good time and everything and that one text can make me feel like shit? It’s so lame.

I was getting so worked up about it but then another one set it all back in order. That annoys me too. It felt good to have that but I hate how upset I would’ve been without it. That’s what sucks so badly about this whole thing. I just need to get out everything I feel and it will be ten times better. Someday.