I slept through my alarm for class today, which made me so angry at myself. I suppose the tylonol PM that I took was taken too late, but whatever. I felt good this morning though because I realized that he isn’t mad at me or annoyed rather because he still wants to talk to me. That eases my anxiety about what happened on Saturday. I ended up getting a lot done around the house which made me feel great. I think the clutter was starting to freak me out and make me anxious so cleaning it up and doing laundry was really helpful. Then came the scare, but that is behind me. I felt like I couldn’t breath and I was irritated and it was horrible. But everything was fine after it was no longer a threat.

My nap was nice but I hate that I skipped class. All I have to do is go and sit and listen to people sing and I couldn’t do that? Seriously? It made me feel so anxious to miss it because I know it was stupid to do so, but it would’ve just worn me out. I hate that class I hate the teacher, he creeps me out and he is one of the biggest douche bags I’ve ever met. I can’t wait for the semester to be over with that class. Which is so sad because it is a class that I have loved for the past two years. I actually think I’ve missed more seminars for his class than I have in the past two years. Same with the lessons.

Then I spent the rest of the night at the library and it was nice. I normally feel so alone when I am in fact alone but being by myself in my own head was nice because I actually felt like I got something done and that made me feel less anxious about this assignment. I should’ve started a lot earlier than I did but I started much earlier than I normally do so I am still feeling okay about it. Tomorrow night will be a longer day but that’s okay.

Overall it was a very productive day filled with a lot of different emotions but I felt on track most of the day which isn’t normally how I feel so it was nice to feel a little more stable.