November 2011
7 posts
November 19th
The day started out really well. I woke up feeling good and I spent the day with my family and friends. As the night went on I was becoming more and more anxious and it really hit its stride when I was out and my friend texted me about stuff. It made me so anxious and angry and there were so many emotions going through me. It ended up making me have a horrible time and I hate that. I hate that I...
November 18th
Before Noon: I woke up today feeling exhausted, this is because of the fact that I was up till 4am writing a paper. It was somehow comforting to know that the procrastination part of me hasn’t changed although it did make my night a bit stressful. However I woke up in a good mood, I am excited to go home for the most part. There is of course this feeling in the pit of my stomach that wants...
November 17th
Today started off really weird. I felt like I was hurrying up to wait with everything and I still feel that way. I really have no interest in going to my class, but I feel like after the paper I wrote for it there is no way I am going to do well in this class. I wish that there were progress reports like in high school, you never know how you’re doing in college until you get your final...
November 16th
I slept through my alarm for class today, which made me so angry at myself. I suppose the tylonol PM that I took was taken too late, but whatever. I felt good this morning though because I realized that he isn’t mad at me or annoyed rather because he still wants to talk to me. That eases my anxiety about what happened on Saturday. I ended up getting a lot done around the house which made me...
November 15th
I feel better today. I also feel really anxious about the classes that I’ve been missing and now the fact that one I need to graduate, I might not be able to take. That actually might be the thing that is making me the most anxious. I have absolutely NO desire to be here for an extra semester, but then I think about all the work that I put into my theatre major and I wonder if it would be...
November 14th
I’m still feeling down today. I can’t stop thinking about my actions this weekend. I need to reevaluate how I act towards the people around me when I’m drinking and even more so I need to not drink as much. I blacked out and have no clue what I said or why I was saying it. Looking at my text conversation was devastating because it wasn’t me at all. I said things that I know...
November 13th: Home
I have been feeling like someone cut a hole out of me and now I am forced to live a different life. That’s dramatic but it’s the only way I can describe it. I haven’t been myself for quite some time now and I’m not exactly sure why. It seems like my life has been flipped upside down and I can’t do anything to fix it. The sorority has become foreign to me, I am...